We may discuss you incessantly, but you aren’t popular at all. I am sure you know that Covid, despite which you do what you do. You have been the reason that people lost jobs, lives, and hope. You’ve caused destruction that will take years to rebuild, if at all.
However, I have a confession to make. I am one person whose life you changed, completely.
When you first struck, I, like a lot of other people, thought you were a passing wind. You would be gone before we realized it. How wrong I was, and that is the first thing you made me realize – that we can’t be sure of something we don’t know anything about.
When I accepted that you were here to stay, I still didn’t feel the weight of your impact. Till we lost a dear friend to you. A young man who was healthy, hopeful, and left the world with his many unfulfilled dreams and plans. This was when it was reiterated to me that we are not invincible and we only have now, and this very moment.
You showed no signs of leaving, Covid. As you stayed you made me understand that there was so much I did not need. There were so many things and relationships I could survive without. The office space was replaced with a laptop, mobile, and wifi, and work went on. Daily chats with loved ones become scarce, but the rare ones we had held all the emotions and honesty we could squeeze in.
You made me even more grateful than I used to be. I thanked the Universe every day that I had a roof over my head, food on the table and an able body to tackle all the manual labor all of us found ourselves grappling with.
When you stayed put, we couldn’t step outside. That is when I decided to go inside. I began Meditating once again. I hadn’t been happy with myself and my life for a long, long time. This deep dive within, via meditation, made me tread dangerous waters, of thoughts and feelings I had pushed away, hoping I would never have to confront them again.
Facing them was painful, accepting them even more so. But you, Covid, refused to move away, which is why I moved deeper into my psyche. Sorting, discarding, and accepting what I deemed fit. The tunnel this journey led me through was dark. It was scary. Just when I thought I would never see daylight, the light of understanding and acceptance dawned.
It is said that the ‘Truth will set you free’. What no one tells you is that the truth will make you mad as hell and bring you down to your knees before it sets you free. When you’re down on your knees you are in the perfect position to pray. I formed a new bond with The Universe, trusting it and surrendering myself to it completely.
That trust has paid off beautifully.
I am at a place in life where I am at peace. I am content. I am very grateful. I know the pain you have brought to the world so I hesitate to say this, but I must – I am grateful to you, Covid. If not for you I would not have been where I am, opening a new door and walking a new path.
I wish everyone who has had something taken away due to Covid, finds the peace they need.