I have always been an impulsive person. While others look before they leap, I am one of those who doesn’t look after she has leapt, and most probably injured herself while thoughtlessly doing so.
Over the years I have strived to change this habit, but haven’t succeeded, so far.
My impulse leads me to be at the forefront when it comes to helping people. Be it mentally, emotionally, physically and even financially. I never pause to think about the pros and cons of helping out, when there is someone I know who needs help.
The last couple of years of being so have begun to take their toll on me. I have spent days, even months helping friends out by being a shoulder to cry on and a listening ear. If help has been needed by being there physically I have been there.
It’s been extremely draining.
I have begun questioning myself about what am I? A good person? A good friend? Or perhaps gullible? Even foolish?
2018 was an interesting year. It gave abundantly, and as it did it took more than it gave.
So much so that 2018 left me empty, and running on reserve. We all know that running on reserve can only takes us a little distance, before we are forced to stop and fuel up.
Which is why my Word of the Year for 2019 is
My goal for 2019 is to, ‘Practise the Pause’
Pause before I decide
Pause before I help
Pause before I lend
Pause before I trust
Pause before I believe
Pause before I expend my energy and resources.
That all important Pause is what I hope will let me take a step back and think whether I should move forward. When it comes to helping people, when it comes to being there. No, I am not being cynical I am just thinking smart.
Because I have * finally * admitted that my time is precious as are my resources and if I don’t realise that how do I expect anyone else to?
Have you chosen your word of the year for 2019? Do share it, if you have.